Why is it that after being comfortable with my gender identity for so long, I end up start feeling the dysphoria that everyone keeps talking about? I mean, I always disliked male dress except for when I performed but now I get it. Collared shirts and dress pants are very hyper-masculine to me. It puts a sense of manliness that I didn’t identify with. T-shirts and jeans are fine with me because all genders wear t-shirts and jeans. And female close have the same effect on me. My father is convinced that I just don’t have class or whatever but to me dressing up is just another way the gender binary fucks up my emotional health.